Sometimes I look back and think that my life was so much more colorful because I blog very often.
Now it's like mundane work and angry stuff every day... though there were some good times, but it's mostly me feeling relieved that work had gone without boss's criticism for once. So it's like a single either-or situation that's taking up my life. It's kinda irritating.
Today (or yesterday, it's 1am) I got to go to Esplanade and see The Kite Runner
for free with Big Sis and friends, and then we took a walk in the area and had dinner at Thai Express. I love the Esplanade, it had such a beautiful view with so much art and music alive. It felt like I was right where I had to be, and I felt totally relaxed for the first time in so long. Friend asked where my real interest is in regards to work, and I thought for a moment before I answered, "Creative." The only thing is that I don't think I'm really good in that area - being both left- and right-brained makes me average in everything, I feel, haha. And it's sad because nowadays I don't know who's supporting my creativity anymore, anyone to give me tips and encouragement. Sora-kun is amazing, she read my writing even if it's just one chapter and expressed excitement, and that makes me feel very happy and motivated. I had plenty more people who did that in the past, but now most people just 'fav and go', or 'comment "awesome" and go'.
I miss meaningful comments.
I still think it's amazing that I still have the will to continue creating stories even without the support. I'm so glad that I made http://phantomstaff.tumblr.com
, it became an important retreat for my creative mind. I guess the passion really is there. But a little support from others would always be worth some points, right?
Anyway, just needed to get that out. Time for bed.